Yet, even after all these years, my first response to practically everything life presents is still some form of fear. Luckily, there is always a clear solution: perspective that comes from humility and gratitude for the opportunity I now have to be of service to my family, friends, community, and humanity. My emotions, whatever they may be, exist to ensure that I take reasonable care of myself and am attentive and compassionate with others—all so I may be of service.
I have learned to be grateful for my emotional nature even if I still do not like some of my innate responses to the natural provocations of life. I have learned to love and trust. I have learned to be patient and tolerant—most of the time. I have learned to be quiet and flexible, though I am not always graceful. I am still very much a work in progress, but there is joy and humor in being fully human. I am grateful for and delighted with the relationships that recovery has made possible with my spouse, my children, friends, colleagues, and fellow volunteers. Today, I am gratefully free to feel and express the depth and breadth of all the emotions of which I am capable. I am unafraid to feel and unafraid to express myself, because I now trust I can do so without causing pain and suffering. Also, much of what I feel is now positive: sharing love and joy with passion and delight—what could be more amazing?
EATING DISORDERS ANONYMOUS (EDA)
EDA is a Twelve-Step fellowship of individuals who share their experience, strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problems and help others to recover from their eating disorders. People can and do fully recover from having an eating disorder. The only requirement for membership is a desire to recover from an eating disorder.
General Service Board of EDA
P.O. Box 5243
Chico, CA 95927